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I never thought I would have this experience
It happened sudden and ends so harmful without left any words
sometime I say .. it's not fair
but it's all my fault from begin to go so far in something not real..
Sadly, in the end .. just can't forget .. can't forgive .. still wait for hope .. and never gave up dreaming or just never wanted to have the same experience again ...
I guess all my DA friends know who I'm talking about ..
well, look like Kau chan will back finally
after End her last chapter of dreaming with Hosoya Yoshimasa ^-^
suddenly , I find myself having a dream about him again ..
It's sad .. hurt .. and ..
Why it's sad .. because I want to meet him in real not like that .. why it's hurt.. because I'm having enough ..
This is the 10th dream with him ... I name it
( Eternity Unexpected Guest )
That day (last Wednesday on 11 of March 2015) .. I just forget for hours about him and start thinking about what I'm going to do before having a nape
Then I find myself working in the back scenes with my father , older sister and brother . We were working hard doing some work which i can't explain what was exactly .. it changed from experiments into carrying air-conditions fixing whatever .. I was following my sister, she was exciting to follow her experiment and doing many crazy things !
Then , the event was as same as concert , it was about American film I really can't remember what the movie's name ( but something I knew but it's blur) well, I was watching from far while I was working . I find the actors were talking about their parts . (The movie was translated into Japanese Dub) so , I was seeing actor talking after actor .. Then, I heard familiar voice . I turned quickly to find It's HIM !
I said loudly make my sister be able to hear "It's Him!" my sister turned and see where I was . "I'll go and see him! " I said to her. She replied calmly , "Ok go a head" . I ran ran ran and she helped me to go there . My heart was beating so fast ! Am I finally going to see you in real!?
The event took place on the ship they were having a small party after the concert . I was worried that I was late because I can't find him ! I searched from far trying to spot where he was ! until I almost gave up .. I found someone looked like him but it wasn't him at all .. Then, I continued running searching then, I find someone wearing black covering with gray jacket with familiar hairstyle . It's HIM! I waved as stupid and thought ( it's impossible him noticing me Who I am to him XD) And he was drinking having good time alone O___O .. (not good ) I didn't know how this happening I was be able to enter the crowd of famous people OuO .
I walked through them until I reached him .. I stood .. with mumbling I can't talk to him .. I was afraid , not but confuse .. He looked at me with non caring until I spoke . ( watahi wa kautsar desu ) I hesitated Hosoya san with his drunk face looked at me . "humm" another uncaring then someone asked him to see " look someone here for you " then he replied " Ah~ fan desu " then he left a big mocking laugh , I was stood silently .. feeling embarrassing while both are laughing at me then I broke them with saying "I'm happy" ...! Hosoya stopped me asking " nihongo wo " he is asking me to speak Japanese only . I tried my best specially my Japanese still not good and I said " Drama CD kitemas! I always listening to you ! "then he said ofcourse , do you want a new one ? it's with my friend who next to me (these was in Japanese ) really!? a new one! ? I was surprised .. and worried because if I need to buy it now .. my pocket didn't have that much to buy something in dollar price . but his company said It's not here now come in another day then he laughed .both were laughing . I broke the moment and said " watash wa happy desu" I was acting weird by making nya nya move =='
They laughed then he sipped another glass. His company left him then I was with him alone .. I looked at him like it's not the way I wished to meet him .. I hope I could have his autograph but I don't have anything related on him or how to write on .. I was working and I don't have anything . He was standing .. I was worried he would left without having any memory , I took my cell phone to record but I remember I have some pictures I would like to show him . " yume was iru " I always dream about you " I said . Then he smiled . It makes me relived . then , I wanted to show him a pictures suddenly there were many cellphons on the ground .they were all mines but different year . I try to find which one is having my last save that I was .. oh com'n it's not the time . (creepy part)
Then he about to leave (look like there is so boring being with me ) I stopped him ! and asked him to shake my hand for the last .. then he did . He turned and grabbed my hand and we started shaking our hands . my heart was beating I felt happy ." yoroshku it was pleasure to see you Hosoya Yoshimasa san " that was the last words that I guess ... we parted .. and I was stepping back seeing his face as a Farwell . before I turned he grabbed my right arm with his left hand .and held my palm strongly . I looked at him and I looked to our hands I was trying to release but he held more tight . I could feel his bigger hand on mine . Then , he start walking .. or we start walking . (blur) I don't know what we were talking . Only I remember in the end I asked him " can I mail you ?" he looked at me with cold and then changed to smile " yes , .." I was so happy ! bursting happy but suddenly my cellphone rang I didn't know where is it ? but I could feel the vibration . Suddenly Hosoya with his right hand touch my chest in the right >> O///////O WHA! then his hand moved down to point at my cellphone which in my skirt pocket . " um" I ignored his move . I was going to have his email .. oh com'n , I answer the call. It was my sister she was anger that where I had been ! and my father was doing everything alone . and he tired ! then, I woke up from my stupidest dream which I'm standing holding our hands with Hosoya . and he nodded by saying you may go , I felt sad .. but I have to go and help . our hands parted . I said "sayonara" my head was down . Then , I took the stair to head down where my sister was waiting for me . Suddenly, he fell on my back.. look like he faint from drinking . I quickly grabbed his right hand to my shoulder helping him and he respond by laying down on my other shoulder and fall into sleep . Oh no .. I can't go to my sister with this pose O__O ! Anyway I helped him to walk on the stair , suddenly his other hand were touching my stomach , I ignored him and continue but he moved down .. I quickly ran down and push him to his last person who he was with ! I bowed and ran ( puff this part is blur I don't remember where I put the dead body Of drunk Hosoya XD ) . Too bad my sister was watching me helping him .. you know .. it's time for lecture ..
yeah .. leaving my father.. he was tired and I was running behind a drunk person .. you know how unlucky me ..
While I was continue helping my sister who was still lecturing me , "are you really in love with that man!? he looks bad ! so much bad that why he is drinking like this !? " I was thought .. every moment I felt kinda happy but why !? I felt sad but I kept in my mind saying I was wrong .. and I'm going to stop this and hate him forever ..
Then I woke up from a dream .. =='' it doesn't feel good .. neither it's so much disappointed !
Well, the things happen in dream is just reflect the reality, right?
I just feel sad that I already met him 10th times in dream without seeing him in real .. that's so much harsh ..
but I find out how stupid I am .. falling into someone doesn't know me 100%
Loving game or anime characters at least I know they aren't exist but him....
I draw this for the eternity confusing , the girl is .. no one .. she is wondering .. seeing one colored petal from thousands, as I does to him .. I haven't fall into anyone but him (as real people forget about fantasy life )
I didn't want to make edit of him until next time , if there will be next time ..
I wonder how would people want to be in love or want this feeling .. the most horrible experience !
Well, I know I'm running in same circle every day and also my words never changed .. but I really decide to hate him forever! just help me to forget him my friends!
thank you dear friends ! I know I will be back soon ! and stop being in love forever!
© Window of fantasy Kauthar Sharbini.
We are three ! My big sister(red) , my little brother(blue) and me(green) let's play |
My best little sisters
why are they Ryoma's fans XD ?
My Psychology Test result of colors and people : powerpoint.office.live.com/p/P…
Ori :Someone will never forget
Fuji : your twin soul
Shiraishi : someone that you'll remember for the rest of your life*indeed*
Saeki : Someone that you really love
The club I join Is:
☆Shin Tennis no Ojisama ☆ Muslim Manga☆
Current Residence: in Islamic world Makkah
Favourite style of art: pencil , Background arts
Operating System: window xp
MP3 player of choice: Mr.Ecstasy Albums
Wallpaper of choice: my bomb style . prince of tennis
Favourite cartoon character: My Original character Lucas
Personal Quote: Smiling of people is precious